This morning, as I opened my eyes, wiping away eye boogers and crust, I could feel my eyebrows beginning to take form of the green poison control sticker guy.
I'm angry. But why though?
I wanted to blame it on me just being a woman, you know hormonal but it has to be more than that.
I took Paris, my children's puppy out to potty and fed her. Cleaned my kitchen, fixed a snack for my twins for school and prepared tonight's dinner. All before 6 a.m.
Still, I'm fuming. And no clue why.
Snapping at the kids when they woke up. Not cool mom. Not cool.
I had to get out of myself to try and acknowledge just where these feelings were stemming from.
Ahh, yes. And there it was.
Currently I have so many things going on in my life that I have not had the chance ( I lie, I haven't made the chance) to sit down and evaluate. This weight, these pressures had begun to become a part of me and they were beginning to invade me...even while I slept. We have to release and let our problems go in order to have peace in our lives. I am beyond guilty of trying to handle things on my own.
Often we believe that we can handle all of our problems on our own. But sometimes that is just not the case. Sometimes we NEED other people to communicate feelings and emotions with, we NEED those people to breath new life into us and to believe in us but more so we NEED to know that we can trust God if we truly want to come out of the muck that we're in.
I'm tough, I'm smart, I'm extremely independent but I CAN'T ALWAYS DO IT MYSELF. And I'm cool with that. :-)
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Isaiah 41:10 So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous hand.
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